<< Mar 2009 New Toys! Friday, February 27th, 2009 - 11:49 am
No no, despite the fact that I am an author of erotica I am not talking about *those* sorts of toys! I do have other hobbies, you know. What I'm referring to is the 50mm, f1.4 Canon lens that I have been saving up for and for which I have nearly enough money - I am so excited!
I've posted some of my photos up here before, I think, and you may have noticed that I love portraiture and I am hoping that, with this new lens, I'll really be able to push my images to the next level and see what I can do. I doubt I'll ever make any money through photography - lovely though that would be - but it is a hobby that I take seriously enough to spend a bit of money on and I think this will add to my enjoyment massively. I'll let you know when I've actually bought it and hopefully post some pics up on here after that!
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~E~
My Favourite Places Wednesday, February 25th, 2009 - 12:34 pm
I have several favourite places that I like to visit. My first favourite place is my bed. Duck down pillows, Goose feather and down duvet, Egyptian cotton bedlinen and a hot water bottle. It’s heaven on earth, especially in this bitterly cold weather. I can’t wait to get in at night when I’m tired, I hate having to get up in the morning and I have to fight the urge for a nap or a little afternoon delight. Making love in feathers is far more fun than a roll in the hay!
The kitchen is, bizarrely, also a place I love. Baking is my stress relief, so when things get frantic I make brownies, or cookies, or banana cake, or fairy cakes, or blueberry muffins or lemon crunch cake or lemon drizzle cake or try a new recipe I’ve never tried before. Stress is instantly gone and the whole room fills up with the delicious smell of home baked goodies. Delicious. What a shame I then have to eat it all afterwards…!
Saunas are my final choice. Hot, dark, sticky, silent. I find them ideal places to relax, unwind, let my thoughts trickle through my fingers… and if you can guarantee a reasonable amount of privacy, then there’s other fun things to do in a sauna…! Anyone know of one going spare that I can use?
Frustrations Tuesday, February 24th, 2009 - 11:00 am
No - not a sex blog (for once) but a list of things which are currently frustrating me. This is a vent of kinds, so I don't much mind if you don't read it - whatever makes you happy...
- No car at the moment - I'm trapped I'm trapped!
- Massively hungry...mustn't eat everything in the kitchen
- Missing some channels on the TV - all the good daytime ones! grrrr
- No job, no money, having to wait and wait before I can buy the new gismo I'm after :-(
- No-one buying my books, as far as I can tell...
All this equals time for a massive life and attitude overhaul. First thing's first I'm gonna go and get dressed - amazing how much difference such a small thing can make. Then I promise to spend the whole afternoon writing and working. I'll be good I'll be good!
x
~E~
Sharing Fantasies Friday, February 20th, 2009 - 6:20 pm
It's a tricky one, isn't it? When do you tell a partner what really turns you on? I don't mean the everyday stuff, like what position hits the spots, but the really dirty fantasies - the ones with the whips, chains, third person, special costume/equipment/location type fantasies. Do you tell them before you even go to bed together? Not likely - it seems a little presumptuous somehow, not to mention that it stops them working so hard to seduce you, because you've then let on that you're a sure thing. OK - how about the first time you sleep together? Not really ideal - either during or after the deed. If you tell them during then it puts too much pressure on an already intense experience and if you tell them after, it would seem to suggest disappointment with the sex you just had, because it wasn't tailored to your particular brand of kink.
OK, so what about when you've been sleeping together for a while - is it a good time then? Well, it depends. By the time you've been sleeping together a while you've probably already put them in a box: they're either about to be dumped or you've lined them up for a full-time permanent position. If you're about to dump them, then sure, you can tell them and sometimes you do, but there's not a lot of point since they're about to be written out. If you've become really keen on them and are hoping they'll stick around, then it seems a bit risky to suddenly let on all the stuff you've been keeping from them - what if they're disgusted by you and run off? Or, equally as bad somehow, what if they don't revile you, but tell you that they could never partake in your particular brand of kink - that they don't mind you thinking about it, but you'll be doing it on your own. Would you be able to stay with them, knowing that your deepest darkest desires will probably never be fulfilled?
Once you've reached that point then there's not a lot of difference whether you leave it a year, or five or ten - there's still the chance they might run off, or the even bigger chance that you may end up doing it alone. Sometimes, I guess, you just have to weigh up the chances and consequences and take a leap of faith. Who knows what might happen next.
Uh Oh, Who's In Trouble? Wednesday, February 18th, 2009 - 1:45 pm
I don't know if you've noticed a change round here lately. Perhaps you've spotted that I'm back to posting regularly, or maybe you've wondered why I seem to have bounced back with the libido of a springtime bunny rabbit - either way the answer is the same. I completed a training course recently, it's a copyrighted course, but works along the basic lines of life-coaching, anyway, since I finished the course I have discovered these untapped wells of energy and enthusiasm and it has not only boosted my productivity and creativity, but my libido as well. That's right. I am so horny and frustrated that I'm just about ready to bite the end off a steel bar -- and I got laid twice yesterday!
Oh well, it's looking good for my writing...
~E~
Bring Back The Caveman Tuesday, February 17th, 2009 - 12:53 pm
It's funny - if questioned I guess I would call myself something of a tease, and I'm fairly sure others would agree, but when it comes right down to it I'd really rather have my decision (and the option of teasing) taken away from me and just be taken. I'd love to be pushed up against a wall, or held down on a bed and have all the pretence - the to-and-fro of flirtation and foreplay - stripped away to reveal the simple, bestial act of intercourse. That's all it is, you know, an animal impulse. Sometimes I long for the emotion and the complications to be removed so I can get back to the sheer intensity of the physical act. What? You're surprised that a woman can feel like that? Perhaps you consider the 'no-strings' fuck a man's prerogative? Not true. I've successfully bedded many men (and women for that matter)without consulting my emotions in the slightest. years later and still no regrets, except (perhaps) that there hadn't been rather more of them.
I hate all the 'are you sure?'s and the 'what do you want?'s. If I don't like it or don't want it, you'll know by the nail marks down your face, right? Not to mention the knee in your groin. Sometimes I don't want to consult my finer emotions, or my conscience, I just want to be a vessel for somebody else's lust - a position which satiates my own at the same time.
This metro-sexual caring man shit can be taken too far, you know - I prefer cavemen.
Please Don't Divorce Them Saturday, February 14th, 2009 - 12:11 pm
Someone sent me this link today and it moved me so much that I felt obligated to post it on my blog. Why break up committed, loving couples? Surely this world needs as much love as it can get.
